somehow the news affected me quite some bit. when qi was on the phone with my mom, she suddenly mentioned "xxx" and then after a long pause, "passed away?!" it caused me to freeze for a moment. it was so unbelievable i had to hear it from my mom herself to trust that the information was true. he was not someone i knew, except from the occassional mention of him by my brother, seeing him during trainings while picking my brother up and during various races. but the sudden news of his departure came as a rather huge blow and caused tears to trickle down my face involuntarily. it's so sad :( it's so hard not to think about it. reading the articles/blogs online makes you cry. it still seems so implausible. so unfair :( it's so so sad :( sigh, why's life so unpredictable? we never will know what's gonna happen next :(
imagine someone so dear to the heart leaving so abruptly. without a word. the emptiness and sense of loss you'd experience. imagine wanting to talk to someone, who's already gone, so so badly :(
"treasure what you have." i realise that's what i'm often found telling myself when smth tragic happens. i really should learn to do that.